I realize I left everyone hanging. Given the information I had from early June; I decided that I was going to write my birth mother a letter. I did; and decided I needed to take it to the post office and mail it so I didn’t chicken out and pull it out of the outgoing mail. I put it in the mail June 9th something like 10 PM. I made an email address that didn’t have my last name it, just for safety I suppose. It’s now been a month and I’ve not heard anything.
I was anxious for the first week but now I know she’ll email if she wants to, it’s a lot to take in and process.
I feel like if she chooses to contact me it’ll come when I least expect it. The handful of people I have told have asked me if I’ve heard from her; which I think is awesome that they are asking; but some days, I honestly don’t think about it. I know this sounds bad but it’s just what I am kind of used to… Time will tell, it’s in her court. I’ve done my part and I feel oddly at peace with it all. Everything else that may come will be a bonus.