I typed this on my phone. I think I'm at the anger stage of grieving over Scott. I'm doing better not constantly checking my phone and worrying all the time. I'm pissed at him for not sending me a message [if he is okay]. But I'm mostly mad that I cannot have dreams about him. … Continue reading grieving it all.

I saw a therapist on Tuesday. Well, via telehealth because the place I chose to be a client of had a pipe burst when we had the bad weather over Christmas. I was matched with her. I read her profile and really liked what I saw. In the hour we spoke, I am going to … Continue reading Therapy and thoughts

I typed this on my phone -1/9 but didn't post it for a while... I have always thought writing and talking about it makes it blow up in my face and I was right. I haven't heard from Scott since Friday about 5pm. Things were going well. I really don't know where it went wrong. … Continue reading Should have known.

I should be tackling all the work. Instead I'm writing here. It's all too overwhelming. The emotions. The work. Finances; fucking adulting. I am slightly okay with my allergies today because it's hiding that I've been on the verge of tears more than a handful of times today. I wish I could take work home … Continue reading

I wrote this January 9th and kept it private. Changed it to password protected today, January 24th. I haven't heard from Scott since Friday afternoon. I have no clue why. He said he had a week of work left and he was going to have some family time and some travel coming up. Then we … Continue reading heartbreak sucks