About 4 years ago my brother Luke, lost 100 pounds and kept it off. And over the course of 8 years I’ve gained about 75 pounds; reaching my highest of 265.
I can only chalk it up to stress; but somehow I’ve managed without any planning, change of diet, or anything, to get down to 242; give or take a few pounds since May.
My brother and I talked way back when he lost the weight and basically he said that I just have to decide to do it, and while I want to; it just hasn’t clicked yet. Having that 20 pound loss somehow since May; I think I’m getting closer to wanting it. Like making choices to actually go forward with it.
And then… it all has gone downhill.
It’s now October 2016 I’m still avoiding full body shots if at all possible. I need some photos for my Scentsy business – and want some fun / playful not so boring head shots, but I want to feel comfy. I just was texting Adam that I feel / look gross, I don’t feel comfy in my own skin. He just always says “the only one that can change it is you” he’s always so sweet, supportive and but kind about it, and not at all a jerk – but let’s get real, Adam has never been rude or jerky to me. And I appreciate that he likes me as I am.
Sure I have a smile on my face in these pictures; but I want to REALLY smile; and feel it. I have a beautiful Erin Condren Planner; I can make sure I keep track of some things, eat a little better. I know I’m the type if I go all in right away it’ll last for a few days then I’m done. I need to baby step into it. I need to make sure I’m drinking water at home – it’s a start, less pop. I live in a much better area/neighborhood and lots of people walk / jog / run, so I can go for walks. Just get moving. I really want to get a bike, but it’s not in the budget now, although right now is when they are on sale. I might still look for a deal, but we shall see.
I saw something that says it takes 4 weeks for you to see results; 8 weeks for friends and family to notice and 12 for the world to notice – keep going. I like it. I’m looking to Pinterest for a lot of VERY beginner easy workouts at home.
I want this. I’m going to do it. It’s going to be hard, it’s not going to be quick; it’s going to take time, but right here, right now I’m deciding that I’m going to take baby steps into this process. I hope that by November 23, 2017 (my 35th birthday) that I can hit the scale at 199; it would be awesome to kick these last 43-45 pounds.
57 weeks approximately I’m shooting for 1 pound a week. That gives me some wiggle room. If I hit the goal before, awesome.
everyday jess 